Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Just what the doctor ordered

This weekend away was perfect, blissful and just what we both needed. It was so nice to just get away from everyone and everything for a few days. I came back renewed and refreshed and while I still don't like my job, I didn't dread it nearly as much as I usually do on Sunday nights.

We left Friday night after work and checked in and essentially went straight to bed. We got up Saturday morning and packed up. My husband hit the slopes and I hit the lodge. I had internet access, movies and a comfy couch to sit on. Around noon we met for lunch and after I went back to our room to nap. We went out to dinner that night at one of the favorite local restaurants. Being in between towns, the roads weren't lit very well so it was slow going because we couldn't see more than 10 feet in front of us.

The next day we went had a fantastic breakfast at the bigger hotel in the ski area. It was a buffet and they had fruits, bacon, sausage, bagels and a Belgian waffle & omelet station. It was all so yummy! We went out driving to one of the nearby towns and just spent the day doing a little sightseeing and shopping. Being daytime, we were able to really take in how beautiful it was up there. I just kept saying wow over and over again. It's amazing where a three hour drive can take you. We did a little snow tubing that night and then did dinner out before returning home.

Monday, we had to return home but not before doing a little cross country skiing. We got home early enough to do a little laundry and still relax before preparing for work today. We're already talking about our next weekend vacation this summer with another couple friend of ours. It wasn't a very long vacation nor was it a very far trip away but it was just what we both needed to renew our relationship.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

My husband is awesome

My husband is wonderful, amazing and just plain wonderful.

So Friday was my interview and I left without knowing anything. I emailed my recruiter and she said she would definitely call me on Monday. Monday came and went without hearing anything. So for Valentine's Day I was in a big funk. I had no desire to do anything, celebrate or even cook dinner. All I wanted to do was curl up and go to bed. I had no appetite and just wanted the day to be over.  Instead, my husband just let me curl up on him and essential sulk. He didn't complain, didn't force me to get out of my bad mood and just offered to make me whatever I wanted for dinner. 

Then yesterday, I get The Call. No dice, I didn't get the job. As soon as I walked in the door, he was there to give me a hug and just hold me for a few moments. He made dinner and suggested we get away this weekend since this week has been pretty crappy. So that's what we're doing. It's a three day weekend because of President's Day and we're off to a ski lodge for 3 nights. He snowboards and I am pretty fantastic at sitting in front of a fire with a book or my laptop relaxing. Oh, and I can window shop.  I've excited. This is the first vacation we're been on just the two of us since our honeymoon.

Also, going grocery shopping after a holiday that's about sweets is not a good idea when you are hungry...or maybe it is. I have a peanut butter heart, marshmallow hearts and peppermint pattie hearts in our fridge.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Nervous

I have my job interview tomorrow and I'm nervous. I'm not nervous about the person I am interviewing with because I have been told he's very easy to talk to. I'm also very confident about my skill set and what I can bring to the job. I know I rock at my job and at making clients happy which is a big piece of the job. It's all about client servicing.  I want to be in more of a client managing role and not be so much in the front end of client relationships so this job would be perfect.

So what am I nervous about? Not getting the job. I've been told by my recruiter, she wouldn't be surprised if I get offered the job on the spot. How awesome would that be going into the weekend? Pretty sure I'd leave the building dancing and maybe crying with happiness. But that also means if they don't like me, I may know right away. I've gotten myself excited and I know that can be dangerous.

I'm also nervous about impressing them. My references all spoke very highly of me and my recruiter was impressed with what they had to say so the person who I am meeting with knows that. I've been told it's also to see if I'd be a personality match.  I know I almost need to go into this interview like the job is already mine but it's also going to be highly disappointing if I don't get an offer. I know if they don't hire me, it's not personal it's business but it's so hard not to.

My bookclub ladies gave me their good karma thoughts so I have that going for me. My husband also sent me an email with a photo of my odometer and it was all 7's. 15 mins later the recruiter called me about setting up the interview. So we'll see what happens tomorrow. I also have a one on one meeting with my boss on Monday which would be a great opportunity to hand in my two weeks notice. I think I just need to stop thinking about this and talking about this....but it's hard.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Looking Back

Sometimes when I think back to some of the things I did when I was younger, I have realized how very lucky I am.

I was very shy when I was younger and found it much easier to make friends online rather than in real life. In real life you aren't looking at someone and can say things you may not say in person just because you are much more comfortable. Also, when talking with members of the opposite sex, you can't see each other and prejudge the other person.

Anyway, one college winter break I struck up a conversation with someone I met in a local chat board. He was about my age, friendly and very easy to talk to. After a week or so, I gave him my phone number (!!). After a month (winter breaks were 4-5 weeks), we met in person and he gave me flowers. He was also emailing me on almost a daily basis with song lyrics that remind him of me prior to meeting in person. A week or so after I returned back to school, I thought it would be a great idea to have him come up to meet me and take me back to his house for the night. We slept in separate beds but it was just him and I alone in his house together (!!!). The only person who knew I was doing this was my roommate and as a freshmen, no one had a car so trying to get to me would have been extremely different. I was also almost an hour away from campus.

Now granted, he turned out to be a very nice guy (whom I am no longer in contact with) however, really spending the night at some guys house, alone, who I had only known a month?? He wasn't a very small person (built like a football player) and could have easily overpowered me if he wanted to. Not one of my brightest moves. In general I have been very lucky with the people I have met online and then met in person. One of them I met when I was 17 and we are still friends 12 years later. Aside from my husband, he's been the one constant, non-family man in my life.

Back in high school, I had this one friend I had met at work. Our birthdays were only a few days apart and we had a lot in common. However, her car only sat two people and often, there would be three of us in her car. I sat on the floor on the passenger side. One night, while speeding, she lost control of the car and we swerved off the road. Thankfully we came to a stop and there was little damage to the car and ourselves. Because I didn't want my parents to get mad, I didn't tell them. Pretty sure I hit my head on my dashboard because when I woke up the next day, I was slightly dizzy. Yes, I probably went to bed with a very mild concussion that night.

I'm a very lucky, very blessed girl. I've never been in a situation where I have been truly scared and I hope I never am. And looking back now with more wisdom and experience, I realize that the outcomes could have been very different.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

I'm tired of being tired

I'm getting tired of being tired all the time. I'm tired of getting home, throwing together a meal when i get home and then just falling into bed at night. I don't have energy and I feel like I just don't get the quality time with my husband that I'd like. My home should be a haven to come home to but sometimes I feel like it's just the place I sleep. Given what I do, I know I'm going to be commuting into the city so I'm going to have an hour commute but even that's better. One of my co-workers compared my commute to a part time job and to be honest she's right. I spend 25 hours a week getting to work. Seeing that is kind of scary. I'm grateful to have a job that provides for us but I will be even more grateful when I have a job a little closer to home. I just have to keep hoping and praying,

My husband laughs at me that I still watch wedding shows when we have been married for over 2 years now. But I really enjoy watching the (sometimes) crazy brides on Say Yes to the Dress.

Last night when I went to pick up dinner the woman next to me was .08 short and was going to have to break another dollar in order to pay. Having my wallet on me, I gave her a dime. It was my little good deed of the day and she was very thankful which made it even better.

Why do ads for period have to be so fancy? I just saw one where the pads looked like they were on vacation with beach umbrellas. And have a happy period? Come on now, really.

I surprised my sister yesterday (in a good way). Her birthday is coming up so I went online to her wishlist, bought something and had it shipped to her house. She had no idea it was coming so when she got home and saw a package on her doorstep she thought she ordered something and just didn't remember. Nope, it was from me! :-). And apparently she had been having a crappy day so the surprise just made it even better. My sister and I's relationship is a work in progress. As we get older and both are in a similar point in life, we have gotten closer. She surprised me last year by making me my niece's godmother. That just meant so much to me.

It's another weekend of working (from home) on Saturday but Sunday is game day and party day so I need to get ready for that later today! 

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Snowmegdon

That's what they are calling the weather around here. We already had nearly two feet on snow in my yard, we got 4 today and we're expecting anywhere from 10-20" of snow overnight into tomorrow. Work surprised me by telling me I could work from home tomorrow. Yea pjs! Yea Gilmore Girls! That's my idea of a good work day. That and being able to get up from my "desk" anytime I want during the day. I really don't have that luxury at the current moment. I usually have to tell someone when I get up and walk away from my desk so there's phone coverage.

My lovely husband is outside snowblowing the driveway right now. We figured it was a good idea to get the latest layer taken care of now rather than waiting until tomorrow to take care of it all. I'm blessed to have a wonderful husband who takes care of these things.  Although I am starting to wonder where the snow is going to go. Our mailbox is barely visible at this point. But as long as the mailman can find it, that's all that matters I suppose.

One of my old managers approached me today to let me know he got a phone call from the recruiter I have been working with. I listed him as one of my references. He said he had a good 20 minute conversation with her about me and she seemed really pleased with what he had to say. I wouldn't expect anything less than a glowing review from him but it was still nice to hear. I'm hoping this means I will get a call about an interview soon.*fingers crossed*

We're hosting a Super Bowl party again this year. I have my menu all planned and right now the guest list is up to 12 people. Once I get the official head count I'll actually buy everything. I don't want to make too much food. Last year we had 20 people in my house. I asked one of our friends this weekend if he was coming and he told me he wanted to but because he lives a couple hours away he wanted to see if anyone else from the area was coming so he could carpool. He said he really wanted to come because he likes my cooking. That made my day. There's nothing I like more than entertaining friends and being told that I am a good cook. I don't always get a lot of time to entertain or have friends over for parties so when we do, it's nice to know they like my cooking. My husband has to tell me he likes my cooking lol